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Status update on “life balance” work in progress

So this is approximately a 30 day progress check – how does it all add up?

X1 – I think I’ve got an excellent frequent walking habit forming; Even if I can only get out there for 20 minutes, I try to make the most of that 20 minutes. I’ve been averaging about 10 to 12 miles per week
Next month – need more discipline for tracking ‘baseline’ so I know where I can improve; action plan: try to get closer to daily; try to track time and distance more consistently; measures: increased frequency – otherwise no specific time or distance goals at this stage

X2 – I think I’ve got a fair meditation habit forming
Next month – need more discipline for tracking ‘baseline’ so I know where I can improve; action plan: try to get closer to daily; try to track programs so I know what I’m using most and when; measures: increased frequency of meditation and journalling

X3 – food is coming along . . . breakfast = low cal protein shake
Next month – need to increase frequency of shakes at lunch as an aid to manage portion control; order 1/2 sandwiches and drink a V8 for a filling lunch and no carbs after 2pm; measures: drop 5 lbs in 30 days

new variable X4 – communication with my husband – clearly I’m living in my own head too much or not communicating clearly, or he’s just a guy and I’m overthinking things. Last night I was hurt that he was surprised to hear that I’ve been out walking in the dark in the early morning. Hello- I’ve been talking about my safety vest and flashlight and posting on FB at ungodly hours of the morning. Even posted some pictures of the full moon. Hello- full moon – dark sky?! When did you think I was walking?! Until now I might have continued to be hurt by this and found some way to bring it up to him as another example of how we’re not connecting. But now I am going to choose to let it go and chalk it up to him being a guy.
Next month – action plan – be sure that I am saying and doing things consistently, when I forgive I must truly forgive and not hold onto things, remember that my relationships are a reflection of myself and that if my husband is not hearing me I own a part of this in ensuring that he knows what is important to me. Measures . . . I’m not sure yet- open to suggestions.


Days 19, 20 and 21 of meditation

The past month of meditation was time well spent and I’m left wondering- what’s next?  I could repeat the same 21 days again- Lord knows that I could use it!  As an experimental thing while I was out walking one morning I listened to a record number of meditations back-to-back- basically the first 5 minutes of every session and skipping the “enter the silence” part.  It was very interesting and uplifting in it’s own way how each day built on the next- cumulative work and positive thinking that really demonstrated how much territory had been covered over the course of 21 days.
Here’s the thing- I need to keep going- to keep the habit- even if it’s my own personal meditation not led by Deepak, my hypnotherapist or some other expert.

I’m very happy that I did this and I’m hungry for more!

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