“In rivers, that which you touch is the last of what has passed and the first of that which comes. So it is with present time.”
—Leonardo da Vinci
Today’s centering thought: “The more I love and embrace change, the more my life unfolds easily and effortlessly.”
Accept life for what it is, not what I expect it or want it to be. Can I stop feeling angry, weak or vulnerable when things don’t go to way that I want them to? As much as I think I’m strong and independent- that is my ego. My ego makes me needy and controlling all at the same time. This is quite heady to contemplate . . .
How can I better accept change without fear, without insecurity? What if they don’t like me? What if I’m not good enough or smart enough? Can I channel my discomfort into something positive and relinquish control? Step out of my ‘ego mind’ and trust that things will work out?
I can really try to practice this in my newest role as mom/ U6 soccer coach. My goal for the kids is “1000 touches” of the ball each practice- basically always moving, always with a ball at their feet. Tomorrow is day 1, 1st practice. My first planned drill is red light- green light. If it turns into ‘traffic jam’ that’s ok- as long as the kids are having fun and learning a bit. Letting go of my need to coach and control will be a challenge! Letting go of my need to please everyone and to do everything myself . . . To manage this latest challenge I need to be able to ask for help when and where I need it. And I need to be grateful for all the gifts this may bring- new relationships, new possibilities, new growth and maturity for me.